Let's Try This, ok?

Well first off, the trial was continued. They had warned me that could happen and it did...so at least I don't have the stress of testifying BUT it is being rescheduled, sooo it will come again. *sigh* We get a reprieve for the moment!

Onto other stuff..Lately I have not felt well. I have been in bed for 4 days now and really have no energy, motivation or strength to do much. My hips have been  hurting for an unknown reason and well, the pain has been really intense as well as the spasms. My legs are literally jumping sometimes from them. I did cook Monday evening, I made Bacon Cheeseburgers and they loved it! So not sure what I'm doing later for dinner, but we shall see. 

Jake isn't feeling well and we have an appt. this morning to take him to the doc. I shouldn't say "we" because it is always ME that takes him because his own father can't be bothered with things like that! But anyways, he has a sore throat, large lymph nodes under his neck and ear drainage...so I made a appt. quick!!! lol. Making sure it isn't the H1N1..that would be our luck!

The doc is also starting me on a new medicine. A betaseron again. I had to go off Avonex because the side affects were becoming really bad and I just couldn't take it anymore. So it is have similar side affects but hoping they aren't as bad. The avonex worked in the beginning but after 18 months it faded and totally reversed itself. So we shall see and hoping this helps turn me around. I also have Fribromyalgia. That sucks too. I also feel like I have bugs crawling on me at various times. It's really weird feeling and TOTALLY creeps me out! I keep looking on my arms, head, hands to see even though I know there are no bugs crawling on me but it FEELS like it! Try doing that over and over everyday!! ICK!!! To know me I am a total BUG PHOBE!!! ICK ICK ICK!

Life will get back on track one way or another. I HAVE to get my life back because this one sucks! I need to be healthy, happy and totally back in my game! I have left things go for far too long!

My Uncle Doug on my father's side passed away on October 8th. He had Lung Cancer that spread to his bones and other places. It didn't take long for the Cancer to overcome him. I haven't seen my Uncle in 15+ years because of a family rift. My Aunt & my Grandma didn't approve of my mom and that I had Mike @ 16. Because of their treatment towards me & my kids, I chose to stay away from them. (My Grandma approved of Mike because he carries the last name Hermes.) Plus there is just so much drama with that side, it is unbelievable. But to not even mention my dad who STAYED with Edward & Brian while he was in Hospice, is just ..well words can't even begin to tell you! I should not be surprised by this but that is just wrong. My Aunt & everyone treated my dad like crap and you know, I'm just going to leave it alone and let karma work their magic. These people are so miserable and they only have themselves to blame for it!

DOUGLAS EDWARD DIXON
"Doug"
"Sonny"
Crown Point, Indiana

Douglas "Doug" Edward Dixon, "Sonny" age 67, of Crown Point, IN passed away on Thursday, October 08, 2009 at St Anthony Hospice Care Unit. He was born on February 19, 1942 in Hobart to Beryl and Irene Dixon. He married Mary Kay Hermes in 1962. Douglas was a retired millwright at Inland Steel for over 30 years. He was an avid fisherman. He was preceded in death by his parents; and sister, Norma Jean. Doug will be dearly missed by his loving family; his wife, Mary Kay; 2 sons, Edward (Christine) and Bryan Dixon all of Crown Point; daughter via guardianship, Janis Dixon of GA; sisters, Doreen, Phyllis, Debbie and Berylene; 3 grandchildren, Logan, Sydney and Kameron. Memorial Services will be held on Wednesday, October 14, 2009 at 7:00 p.m. at Trinity Lutheran Church, 250 S. Indiana Ave., Crown Point, IN. Friends may visit with the family at the church on Wednesday from 6:00 p.m. to 7:00 p.m. (time of service). Cremation at the Burns Funeral Home Crematory will precede the memorial service. In lieu of flowers, contributions may be made to the American Lung Association, 115 W. Washington St., Suite 1180S, Indianapolis, IN 46204, the Make-A-Wish Foundation, 7330 Woodlane Drive, Ste. 201, Indianapolis, IN, 46278, or to St. Jude Tribute Program, P. O. Box 1000, Dept. 142, Memphis, TN 38148-0142. Burns Funeral Home, 10101 Broadway, Crown Point, IN in charge of arrangements.

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Already?

Well, fall is upon us and so are the colder temps! WOW! It literally felt like one day summer and skip to fall 24 hrs. later!!!  I don't mind, I like the milder weather better but the rainy, drab days get my body every time!

We still haven't gotten everything out. Having a MS crisis really put me behind in EVERYTHING! Jake is love, Love, LOVING school here! He is ifnally happy and content with his life! He likes that everyone treats him well, the kids & staff alike! He also commented about the classes and he comes home wanting to get homework done. It's A-MAZING!

On a stressful note, the trial starts Oct. 15th. The only thing is that they actually subpoenaed Jake too. I go in 12 hrs to meet with the Prosecutor about it and go over testimony. I will have more details then. I am not happy at the prospect of even TAKING Jake there. He is finally becoming stable mentally and now they want to throw a wrench into this. It won't happen, not for him.

For me, it was a wake up call about it. I put this out of my mind for so long. The incident occurred June 11, 2007. Finally, 2 years later we are finally going to court for Criminal W recklessness a Class D Felony! I pray that justice be served and his peers put him in jail where he belongs. Jake and I were not the only victims, he has many before me..only he got away with those thru the court. I do believe that GOD will have His way and he has to stand before Him.

Other than that, I am coming out of a cortisol crisis. I think with moving and the stress, my body was using more and wasn't able to replenish it so I became tired, achy and in pain. Last Tuesday tho, I sort of collapsed at school. I had moved many boxes that day and then went to school. About 1/2 way, my hip starting hurting. Like a sciatic nerve pinched-don't-put-pressure-on it- hurt. Mike came to get me and I ended up in bed for 3 days unable to move much. After some rest & steroid pack, I'm not in much pain. It does get "flared" up at times but I am trying to do my best. I had a doctor appt. today (9-30-09) but was canceled for Dr. emergency. So waiting to see what is going on. Ugh.

I'll post some more later. I'm tired. It's midnight and I'm still awake. Pretty soon the kids will be needing to get up for school and I'll want to slap the alarm clock! :)

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